Evolution

No, you are not more evolved. If you were, you'd be able to handle what's going on without as much struggle as you are. If you were more evolved, you wouldn't be complaining that you didn't have anyone to go to. You are not more evolved. Saying that you are only states that you are close-minded and conceited which is one of the reasons I can't get my words into your head. Which is why you keep on saying the same storyline (your phrase) over and over again even though I've tried as kindly and gently and honestly as I can to tell you what I really feel and am doing.

Yes your are arrogant. You admit it and so of course take pride in it. That's why you aren't able to have any humility and see things from another perspective. Yet another thing you claim you can do. I know you can do this, but you don't do it as often as you think you do. I know because you've squashed my shoes many times instead of trying them on to see how they feel. Some times you don't even bother to squash them, you just assume I'm not even wearing any shoes so you don't even consider the possibility of stepping into one of my pairs.

Anyways. The opposite of anger is patience. And no, I'm not shutting down (your storyline). Some times it's better to say nothing to you at the moment because you'll explode, which yes, you have done before and in front of my family.

And yes, you did tell me twice in the past several months that you haven't been smoking. I never asked, but you offered the information when we were talking about your friend's smoking. I don't know if it was a guilt-induced statement so that you wouldn't have to answer a direct question or you were trying to convince yourself that you weren't, but you lied to me too. I forgive you because I understand what it's like to be in that position. But you denied that you ever lied to me. And this is a lie too. Admit it. It takes some humility but you could use the practice.